I couldn't understand why one woman's pregnancy was saved after receiving a blessing from her husband.
And mine wasn't.
About 4 years ago RM was unemployed and it took over a year for him to find employment. I felt that since our family underwent a tough period that somehow RM would never be laid off.
It was a naive thought- RM was laid off from work 2 months ago.
It was extremely overwhelming dealing with grief over my miscarriage and the fear of being unemployed and not knowing how long it would last. I haven't worked in a "real" job in over 10 years, so I started to become discouraged that with every phone call I made to job agencies- they would tell me that most employers were looking for someone with "more recent experience."
I wanted to "throw in the towel" until I read an article titled "Love and Law" by Elder Dallin H. Oaks from my church magazine. After reading and pondering the message, I finally understood and stopped being angry.
The article helped me to realize that though no earthly power could save my pregnancy- only a divine power could save me in my grief, and help me overcome my fear.
I find it amazing that after I found peace- RM got the good news that he starts his new job this Thursday.
Though I still cry at times over the loss of my baby- I find acceptance, hope and I know that God loves me.